U r 50 Yrs OlDer~

blink blink.. and ure 50 and congrats.. happy birthday malaysia.. but ironically wasnt much of a happy day for me..4 lame and bored guys hadda hang out in an all indian and ol` man's bar on the eve or her bday.. thats just sad.. and on top of that i hadda sacrifice my youth by flirting with a bartender to get my frens a jug of beer on the house.. u PussiES~ hahaa

anyway.. 31st wasnt much of a day but u could end it by the word tiring.. and the whole damm week has been a wreck as i ate too much~! and i didnt even get the chance to sweat it off.. man.. i feel sooooooo badd...haha..

rite here comes the crust of the blog.. off with the happenings and on to the occasional ramblings sadly without any 'cun'ted picturese.. hehe.. well somethings has been bothering me for quite sometime these days and it keep crepping up my mind.. how i wish i could just tell them to piss off and there they go.. but it aint that easy huh? geeez..its always timing is everythign huh? i agree..to all my powers i cant turn back or fast forward time.. and i guess i`m just helpless ..

(job classifields- who wanna dust my room? pay is from 0 to nothign much.. ) haha

Misses~

next week its gonna be the dawn of my student life again after months of work.. but it aint gonna end just like that as im still stuck with a compulsory 2 day work.. mann.. how i wish i was in bristol again..
bored.. but at least i dont have to do anythign and i can fool around with my bestmates swei and cuzzy karen.. (we play monopoly again ya?) haha.. how i miss those days.. walking in winter.. getting all wet sending KAREN home.. smoking like there is no tomorrow and the occasional butt slapping.. (opps.. hehe)
life just aint good now.. its just going too fast and i`m feeling i`m missin' all my young years.. its like i`m being forced out of my house and tada~ work ure ass off if u wanna eat.. haha.. been trying to know new friends and new cliqs.. but there just aint time to hang around or at least after jas is gone i think there will be less.. haigh... i`m just soo gonna have fun when classes start.. at least to the best i can and if there is anyone out there who is free to acc me... haha.. sad case..everyone is back in EU or either they are in the States.. shiat..
poor me.. nothing beats my mood up these days... no more carefree drink till u drop days.. spend till ure broke.. smoke till ure dead.. haha.. and not forget to mention getting a date is even harder now..haigh..

~i am gonna die bald, fat, ugly and single..

ReGrEts~

have u ever regret of doing or not doing anything? (emo alert~!!)

regrets of messed up your hair by the bad hairstyle?
regrets of drinking too much till ure too drunk to ask her out?
regrets of being called too liberal or too conservative?
regrets of not asking that person out?
regrets of actually dating a "not so your type" kinda guy?
regrets of not paying the bill in the same shop for a year?
regrets of saying harsh things or took the wrong turn in your relationships?
regrets of not jumping down the bungee?
regrets of not living on the edge?

heck~ thts what i tell my self all the time.. heck~ wtf~ piss off~ at least to a certain extent you`ll feel better or only to the extent lying to yourself would actually make u feel better.. i had a feeling of regret today.. regrets that i didnt peservere (how do u actually spell that?)

well heck~ wateva~

ai yai Yaaii~

like it says~ ai yai yaiii.. havent had much time to updatemy blog or to anywhere interesting to take some photos.. i`m just soooo busy and i think i`m tipsing on the verge of work life and the habit of having a wild heart.. i ask, anyone.. how do you tame a wild heart? tell me.. i need help.. haha

unChangeAblE stIgmA

~one thing that i do agree and see with what people around react to.. still no matter how much hippideehop u are, u're still stuck to the simply and most classic unchangeable perception of being defensive or should i say conserving.. sometimes i do wish things would change, or at least improve but it seems its "all tok and no show"..

~baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah~