Hey Old MAn~

i`m sure we have lost at least some things valueble to us..money, family, freinds, loved ones.. i guess its only when u are old or mature enough u only reflect upon ureself and realise how much u have actually lost and how deeply remorseful u are for that loss.. but on another hand again, if u had never loss such things you would have never learn and grow..

first day 22, realising that i would have to shave more often and maybe growing an inch taller again (fingers crossed), was nothing special and its just like an yother day on the calender.. i found a stack of cards in my drawer and it was those cards which i kept all this years which dated back to my highschool and as i read it, i realised that i have actually had many good friends which some were lost, or some which changed.. though we are still friends today, it just isnt the same as those days where laughter and responsiblity-free faces were all around..

i hope i dont sound old enough like Frank Sinatra to sing 'My way'.. i dont think i`m so old yet~ or so dead.. but i`m preety sure things are starting to dawn upon me that i should stop behaving like i used to..sheesh..

i just feel that i really need a vacation now or sometime off here to get some 'thiking time' on my my.. i dont know but i just feel that my life is so unorganised now.. thou i am working by i guess socially i am going down the drain at least.. and its rather sad to leave that socialite role of urs to pursue into somehting else. .i guess you dont need many friends,but a handful to keep your chin up would do.. and to a certain few who were with me today, although nothing much had happened to feel today was great, but knowing it u 2 and a good seafood dinner is great enough for me.. :)

AsAm Mou Lou GonG~!

yesh, i am back in Lovely KL for 2 weeks and i havent been out much cept for being a lazy turtle in my house.. haha.. missed my bed loads and nv thought that it was soooooooooo comfy.. i lie u not, my bed has alot of comments from ppl tht its comfy (dont get it the wrong way) haha..
well the first few day wasnt much of a happy mood for me, everything was so hot and sticky feeling on ur skin is unescapable (or so to say).. then my tummy hadda adjust to msian food sadly and i couldnt eat all the guud food thts around for me to devour~! omg... sad sad.. when it seemed that the sun had dawned on my only comes the stupid sore throat i`ve been having ever since landing.. not only that but i had spend like gazillions when i am bck in KL just by getting everything in my room and car to the way it used to be..
talking bout gettin around in kl, one thign.. pot holes.. the god dammed pot holes.. i hate em', everytime i see one on the road now all i`ll be seeing is RM500 a pothole... i guess the pot holes in kl have just about every assholes tht DBKL have.. shit.. cause of the damm pot hole i hadda change my tyre in the middle of the frikin rain and cost me 500 bucks to get a new tyre.. shiat.. talk bout being poor.. i`ve never felt so poor b4 not even in bristol..
i noticed that things has increased relatively in prices and not to mention that the 'materialism' thingy is getting into msians too.. just few months i was gone and people in kl branded themselves... LV, Gucci, to the Fake 69 'gucci' mark.. ahaha.. but heck its guud tht ppl here are finally gettin some sense of fashion in them.. but the 'lalas' are just 'lalas' and it will nv go.. haha
well what can i say.. this is truely MSia, and its even 50 yrs of independance that Msia is celebrating.. not forgetting to mention tht now they have the Mata Msia.. haha.. once i saw it i turned back my car and told my self i`m not going back there.. i mean gawd~! it looks like a god damm ferris wheel, i mean it is a ferris wheel.. but even if u havent seen london eye u`ll feel its ciplak.. haha but dont misunderstand me for not being patriotic.. i mean..at least to a certain very least extent... hahah
much has changed around my life in kl, u know the place i dwell in, i hang out in.. ppl getting richer, and the the showoffs and suckups are always there.. but hey this is the Msian life.. u suck where the money is.. at least to certain ppl.. to all u out there.. i dont suck sorry to say, i get sucked.. haha.. (perception on this point is vital not to be misunderstood.. haha) i dont have a thing for homoes.. but shiat i dunno why i keep seeing them arnd, thts ok actually but nnoooooo... i forgot to mention they like to check me out~! gawd gives me the chills.. i had my newcastle exp, and i wouldnt like to repeat it here again.. conclusion~ i need a date~! haha
cant blog much now cause of the stupid streamyx connectiong which is super duper slow and sukcy.. so it takes ages to load pages and on top of that i`ll be starting the super boring life which everyone will be going to start..ie. work~ haha.. so less time for fun more for curi tulang.. haha..

Gay TelEtuBies?

of all things people gotta do is probe on some children tv shows and say its promoting homosexuality..
from yahoo news:-

Ewa Sowinska, who deals with children rights, said she would ask psychologists to advise if this was the case in the BBC children's show.
She was quoted as saying: "I noticed (Tinky Winky) has a lady's purse, but I didn't realise he's a boy.
"At first I thought the purse would be a burden for this Teletubby ... Later I learned that this may have a homosexual undertone."

i mean omIgoSh~ dont u have better things to do? so what if teletubies are holding a purse or seomthing.. heck let it wear undies if they want! so should u start children programs inciting them to luv women? like teletubies with bras and not dicks.. shit! i mean get a hold of urself and go probe some other things like child porm or child abuse.. did they even know that there was a women who asked their kids to fight on video and got released on a fine? shit~! thats like promoting 'ask ur kids to fight and bet!, the gov is only taking 10% of the winnings, so what da heck'... and there was this lady so actually lock her grandshildren in the room and force them to eat their shit cause of hunger? the last thing they need to probe now is gay teletubies..

and did i even forget to mention that Madelene is still missin'? poor kid i really hope they find her and those children rights activists can probe their ass.. maybe their brains are in them.. no offence.. but i really think that there are more that they should do than creating some gay teletubies shit for carrying a purse..

HaVE u Ever BeeN DeFined?

hahaha, my exams are finally over and i can finally slack al the way without ever feeling guilty~ well at least for the time being b4 i have any more yuk yuk exams to go over.
Have u ever been defined by the looks u have? i throw this at u... u know, just cause ure this haa~ ppl say ure that.. like haha i know ure bitchy cause u look like that... ure a shit head cause it look like that.. i dont know but i`ve been feeling really like Grrrr... tht ppl keep on saying tht i`m actually smart when i`m not.. man look at my grades~ do i have to hang my grades to tell ppl tht i`m not what they think i am? sheesh.. i mean its not like it matters anyway.. i dont care.. i guess i`m already immune to it.. i mean its just better than gettin 'hey ure a dope' smacked rite in front of ure face.. i mean at least i know one thign they say bout me, and save to i dont know~! haha..
hmmm maybe i shud cut a punk hair or something u know.. like hey! i dont study and dont say i dont! ahaha.. welp welp, just realeasing some fud of thoughts after being cramped up in the room fer like ages~! i kinda feel its like prison here sometimes ya know, all u do is Tv, sleep and gym.. thats it... its soooo routine and i can barely take the taste of it again anymore..

well atleast exams are over and i have the sudden urge to just go out and snap random pictures of everythign~!! haha.. haigh.. i just wish i have a SLR camera.. well atleast it has a big ass lense which i can fiddel with not those winky digicam like lense.. man it cant zoom of outfocus Shit~! hahaha..
anyway, karen asked me to go Alton towers, at first it didnt seem interesting face first but think bout it now i can wait to go and scream the hell out of my lungs noW~! hahaha.. and F.y.i. if u see my wall now.. u`ll know why my lungs arent gettin any better.. sob.. i`m gonna die.. hahah.. more of a reason for me to stop rite? mmmmm..(thiking) i`ll try..AGAIN~! hahaha..
well i know i`ve been laggin in my blog accounts lately, i`ll try to post sumthin up now seeing that i have SPARE TIME~!! hahaha..

SomeWhere In BetWeen~

well now i`m somehwere in between a break or so to say at least.. most of my friends have finished thier exams and i`m still stuck here preping to face another paper on the 29.. this feeling really sucks.. i wished i could have at least finish earlier and travel to europe again.. maybe i`m greedy maybe i`m not.. haha.. but i hate to admit that i hate being here.. unable to run off and have fun and unable to sit and study... argh~! haha..
previous trip that i planned to Cambodia might be put to hold for awhile.. now its Koh Sa Mui~ hahaha.. cant wait to party there.. but yet it might be good that i can go Cambodia too.. haha.. haigh.. why didnt i be persistant enough to push my dad to let my do piloting.. sacrifice a stable life but atleast i get to see the world first~!! damm 9/11.. i mean how nice if south east asia have cheaper domestic SEA flights and countries around be somewhat different from others... haha.. sad to say its all trees and beaches and undeveloped cities.. cept for singapore but its no diff that KL.. how nice if its more diverse like Europe.. or diverse like countries around HK.. u get to go japan, china, taiwan.. all of those which is really different and relatively close to get around.. haigh..
well cant complain much but i guess i just gotta be contempted with what i have.. guess i`ll be abit mroe positive bout traveliing arnd SEA.. ahha.. well KSM, Cambodia or prolly Hainan island.. the few places i wanna go hopefully really close in the future.. haha..

to all those who get to travel around this stupid period~ buy souveniers for ME~!!!! HAHAHa...